Anyone out there

When you feel like everything you say is wrong
You upset or anger someone
You reach and reach out to people you thought were there but don’t seem to be
You try and then wait but they don’t bother
You feel alone and worthless
What is my real purpose
Just a straight line pressed against your lips
Heart full of hurt
Eyes swelled with tears ready to pour
Stomach is in knots
Your heart beats rapidly
Palms sweat
Anxiety and sadness creep into every part of you
Numbness and emptiness overtakes you
Unsure what is wrong or what to do
Not enough ambition or know how – how to fix
You always mend others
Always solid like a rock for others but pushed out, mocked, unwanted now
What do you do
Anyone out there who understands this rush of feelings
Anyone out there to listen, understand, or help